oooooh that's a juicy question that's def worth its own essay. but the short version is that it gave me a bone deep sense of gratitude for being alive, and a keen awareness that it could all end with one missed step. i also have increasing amounts of conviction that i'm still here for some larger purpose. like, whenever i tell or reflect on this story, i can't help feel like my life was somehow spared because my job here hasn't been done yet. it could be that i'm just unreasonably lucky, but i've chosen to interpret it as imbuing my life with more significance than it might've otherwise had.
Amazing story, I was hooked from the start. How did this experience affect your feelings towards death?
oooooh that's a juicy question that's def worth its own essay. but the short version is that it gave me a bone deep sense of gratitude for being alive, and a keen awareness that it could all end with one missed step. i also have increasing amounts of conviction that i'm still here for some larger purpose. like, whenever i tell or reflect on this story, i can't help feel like my life was somehow spared because my job here hasn't been done yet. it could be that i'm just unreasonably lucky, but i've chosen to interpret it as imbuing my life with more significance than it might've otherwise had.